Dear Sean,

Buddy, you are getting so big! I can’t believe we’re already a third of the way through your first year. WHAT?! HOW?! I am trying to soak up as much of the yummy infant stage as possible, because it is so fleeting. Why does it go so fast?!

Well, the only part I’m not soaking up is the sleep deprivation. That is one thing I will not be sad to leave behind in the (hopefully-not-so-distant) future. So let’s start there this month: SLEEP HABITS. You still seem like you are not even close to sleeping all the way through the night for me. The only thing that’s grown consistent about your sleep is your bedtime (about 7:00pm) and wake time (about 7:00am). At least we’re there, I guess. But the middle-of-the-night feedings are all over the place. Sometimes you’re up to eat as early as 11:30pm, eat, sleep, then up again around 3:00am. Sometimes you sleep until 1:00am, eat, sleep, then you’re up again around 4:00am or 5:00am. Sometimes you’ll throw me a bone and wake only once, around 3:00-4:00am. Those nights seem glorious right now. I know your sleep could be so.much.worse, but it also could be so.much.better. But man, you’re cute and otherwise so, so good—so I forgive you. For now. I’m trying my best to just roll with it for another month or two, but if things are still status quo by then, we may have to do some (*gasp*) sleep training. You’re forewarned.

You’re going down fairly easily at night, especially since you started daycare (we’ll get there in a minute). But whether you stay down right away is always kind of a crapshoot. Sometimes you wake back up in less than an hour. Thankfully, you’ll usually settle yourself back down after a few minutes, but there are times when that’s not happening and I end up going up to feed you—AGAIN! How it’s possible for you to eat so much, I’ll never know.

We did go ahead and move you to your own room a week or so ago. You’ve been doing great as far as that transition is concerned. It doesn’t seem to have affected your sleep at all—positively or negatively. The only difference is how far I need to travel to get you at night, ha! It’s been fun to get more use out of your nautical nursery. Naps are coming along. You’re not-so-great at morning naps, which is probably because we tend to be on the go for a lot of them. Not your fault, but it’s just a product of being the third baby in a family with places to go and things to do all of the time. We’ve been better at enforcing the afternoon nap, though, which has also moved to your crib in your own room. You’ve been doing great with that, usually sleeping for 2-3 hours which is fantastic!

You’re still swaddled, and I don’t think you’re ready to give it up just yet. I’m waiting for when we will have to go cold turkey with it, which could be at any point now, when you figure out how to roll over in it.

ROLLING! That has been your new trick of the month. You’ve been successfully rolling from back to belly for a few weeks now, and you’re starting to figure out the belly to back thing, too, when your arms are in the right position to be out of the way. You always roll to your left. You’ve been working on it so much that you’ve actually given yourself some rug burn on the left side of your face! You’re still not rolling in your sleep, which is good since it’s buying us some additional time with the swaddle. I fear for what our nights might look like when we have to stop swaddling. Hopefully you’ll pleasantly surprise me.

You’re also capable of big belly laughs now, but wouldn’t you know that you refuse to laugh that hard at your family. Instead, you saved that for our neighbor/friend, who had you absolutely busting a gut. Apparently we’re not as funny as think we are! ;)

Speaking of your gut, you are a big boy. We had your 4-month doctor’s appointment and you weighed in at 15 lbs., 11 oz. (63%) and 25.5″ long (68%). It still amazes me how much bigger you are than your sisters were. Your rate of growth seems to have leveled off a bit, which is good because I was beginning to think you were going to grow out of clothes faster than I could buy them. You’re still in 3-6 month sizes for now.

Also, the pediatrician said she thinks you might be teething already because your bottom gums feel very firm. You love grabbing everything you can get your hands on—hair, clothing, toys, whatever—and shoving it in your mouth. You are drooling a lot more than I ever remember your sisters drooling. When I hold you up on my shoulder, you gum the shoulder of my shirt, which makes for some awkward wet spots sometimes! :) It would be totally crazy if you were to get teeth soon, as your sisters didn’t get their first ones until they were 10-11 months old! But you’ve proven that you’re determined to be different in just about every way, so I guess I shouldn’t be so surprised.

So, daycare. I started back to work on September 1. I had 15.5 weeks home with you—more than I ever had with your sisters—and for that I am super grateful. I knew I would never regret taking the extra time, even if it meant going a few additional weeks without a paycheck. Leading up to going back, I definitely felt anxious and sad, but when the day itself came along, it wasn’t so bad. I managed not to cry. It helped that Nora and Vivienne were thrilled that you’d be going to Mary’s with them. Of course, Nora only got a couple of days there with you before she started school, but Vivienne still asks sometimes if you’re going with her and is always so happy to find out you are.

It’s been fine so far. Mary reports that you are happy and easy. You’re not napping as well there as you do at home, but that’s to be expected—same thing happened with Nora and Vivienne, especially in the beginning. Sometimes you come home super tired and it can make for cranky evenings, but I think you’ll adjust with time. Daddy and I just end up holding you a lot, which is fine by us because we like to get in all of the snuggle time we can! I definitely miss you during the week. It’s one of the hardest things about being a working mom, feeling like there is just never enough time. But it makes me truly enjoy the time I *do* have with you and completely cherish the weekends.

You are taking your bottles with no problem, which is a relief. Although you’ve always seemed to be content to switch back and forth (who cares, right? as long as you’re getting milk!), I still worried that you’d suddenly refuse the bottle once you realized you were going to have them more often now. But nope, you’re a little piggy! (Side note: You still don’t take a pacifier. We’ve given up.)

We continue to be amazed by how laidback you are. There are days that go by when at the end, I have to think about whether I even heard you fuss… at all… all day. You’re such a blessing. Such a calm soul!

I kiss you probably 150 times a day. You are just so squishable and lovable and yummy. I really couldn’t love you more. Your smile melts me. That’s a wrap on month #4… let’s go, month #5!

Love you through and through,


In celebration of Sean moving into his own room earlier this week—excuse me while I simultaneously cheer and weep—I figured I would finally get around to taking photos of his nursery.

Rewind to when I was pregnant with baby #3 and “team green” AGAIN. I was not feeling another gender neutral nursery. I was totally uninspired by all neutral nursery ideas I saw this time around. Plus, with everything I had going on in my life, decorating the nursery was far down on the list of priorities. (That’s why we didn’t even remove the guest room furniture and paint it for baby until like three weeks before my due date—and two weeks before he was actually born. Oops.)

But I did peruse Pinterest every once in a while. At first, I figured I would just paint the room cream and do something very plain jane, something simple. Unfortunately, the room doesn’t get a ton of natural light—it’s the only bedroom in our house that doesn’t—so I knew I wanted a light color on the walls to keep it as airy as possible. If I was starting fresh, I would’ve loved to do white furniture, but I couldn’t justify new baby furniture for #3 when we had a perfectly good set sitting in Vivienne’s room. Plus? Tradition. There’s something about having all three of your babies “grow up” in the same crib. ANYWAY… a creamy neutral nursery. I was pretty set on that plan, though not in love with it.

Then, one night I randomly came across a nautical nursery design that incorporated a mint green color. That set the wheels in motion. A nautical theme would be cute for a boy, I figured, but with mint green walls, I could also easily go a different direction for a girl. I went shopping for bedding (really just crib sheets) at Buy Buy Baby and Babies ‘R’ Us. I found a great anchors sheet for boys (that even had an aqua/mint green color in it!) and some floral/geometric design options for girls. From there, I picked a shade of minty paint that would work with both, and we painted.

And then we waited.

Out came baby BOY and I began going nautical nursery crazy. It was fun because I was actually way more excited about the nautical boy’s nursery than I was about my girl option.

The room came together slowly over the course of many weeks during my maternity leave. And here’s how it turned out.

We’ve had the chair, dresser, and glider/ottoman in all three nurseries. I collected everything else from various spots—Target, Buy Buy Baby, Hobby Lobby, Amazon, Lowe’s. There was a lot of shopping involved. :)

I love the way the room turned out. It’s so nice to spend time in there now. It’ll be fun to watch Sean grow in this room.

The paddle with his name was a DIY project. I saw these on Pinterest and they are for sale from a variety of Etsy sellers… but like $80! I was fairly confident I could make one myself that I would like just as much, and this turned out just as I had pictured. Yay for successful Pinteresting.

I looked forever for some kind of wall shelves that would work for this room. I finally found them right under my nose at good ol’ Target.

In the course of decorating, Nora asked me why Sean gets to have an “ocean room,” when she loves the ocean, too. Haha. She fell in love with the decor, too.

I hope Sean likes his room as much as we do!

Crib and dresser – JCPenney, 2010
Glider – Babies ‘R’ Us, 2010
Paint – Sherwin-Williams “Mint Condition”
Crib Sheet – Buy Buy Baby
Breathable Bumper – Buy Buy Baby
Bookrack – Amazon
Area Rug – Lowe’s
White Wall Shelves – Target
Striped Hamper/Toy Bin – Target
Name/Paddle Decor – DIY, supplies from Hobby Lobby
Table Lamp – Walmart, bought white shade with white base and spray-painted it navy
Changing Pad – Keekaroo Peanut Changer (we are friends with the family who runs this company!)
Various Wall and Shelf Decor – Hobby Lobby


Dear Sean,

You’ll have to forgive me for writing your letter late this month—we’ve had a lot going on! (For the record, though, I did take your pics on time!) August has been a crazy busy month for our family. But let’s focus on you.

You continue to grow like a weed. I weighed you on your 3-month “birthday” (at home, using the weigh-myself-holding-you-then-weigh-myself-alone-and-take-the-difference method) and you were 14 lbs. Geesh. I am still squeezing you into 0-3 month clothes often because we don’t have much summer clothing for you in 3-6 months sizes. But you are definitely fitting into 3-6 months outfits just fine right now, which leads me to believe that by the time the weather actually turns in the coming weeks, I may have to exchange some of the fall stuff that I bought you for 6-9 month sizes. Are you really going to make me SKIP A SIZE?! I don’t know if my mama heart can handle that.

You don’t go back to the pediatrician again until 4 months, so we’ve had a little break from doctor visits. I did, however, take you into the pediatric urologist at the end of July to get the potential inguinal hernia checked out. Thankfully, she said she was pretty sure you DO NOT have a hernia and that the excess fluid you were retaining would eventually reabsorb into the body—it just was taking a little longer than might be “typical” in other babies. I’ve already noticed it getting better, I think, so things seem to be on track there.

Sleep has changed quite a bit this month. You are now going down for the night between 7:30-8 p.m. Typically you nurse to sleep but you have also been known to go down awake and put yourself to sleep, which makes me proud! Night feedings are still all over the place, though. Most nights, you’re still up twice to eat. The first time can be anywhere from 11:00 p.m. to 3:00 a.m., and the second time can be anywhere from 3:00 a.m. to 5:00 a.m. Some nights, you’re even up THREE times. On the rare, rare occasion, you’ll only wake up once. I think that’s only happened maybe two times. Anyway, I’m not going to lie—it’s rough on me. You are still usually quick to go back down, and since I nurse you side-lying, I’m usually barely awake, but MAN do I miss sleeping through the night. Mama is tired. Plus, you’re so huge that I feel like you can’t possible NEED to eat this much. Surely you can tap into some of the reserves in your cheeks and thighs in the middle of the night? :)

You’re still sleeping in the pack ‘n’ play in our room for now, since I can’t bear the thought of moving you down the hall and walk “all of that way” to feed you this many times per night. There is part of me that wonders if you might sleep better if I move you, though. It’s worth a shot, and truthfully, it’s getting to be about time anyway… so that transition will likely take place sometime this next month. You’re still not on much of a nap schedule. Generally you’ll take some kind of snooze in the morning, but not usually very long. Your longer nap (which can sometimes be 2-3 hours!) usually comes in the afternoon. I’m still letting you nap wherever and whenever. You take your best naps in the Mamaroo at this point. With Nora, I spent all this time trying to get her on a nap schedule before sending her to daycare, only to have it get completely messed up while Mary got her on a schedule that worked at HER house. So by now, I know not to sweat it and go with the flow a bit more.

Aside from the night feeding frenzies, you’re basically the best baby ever. Not to take anything away from your sisters (even refluxy Vivienne wasn’t waking us up this consistently in the middle of the night at this age!), but your demeanor is definitely “third baby chill.” You’re easy going because you kind of have to be. When you cry—which isn’t often—we can’t always tend to you RIGHT THAT SECOND. We might have two girls in the bath, be trying to get shoes on, taking Viv to the potty, or be in the middle of a bedtime story. I always feel major mommy guilt when I feel like we can’t meet everyone’s needs at once (especially yours since you’re still so little!) but I think it’s made you more patient overall. You really only cry when you’re hungry, which is maybe a little more often than other babies. You’ve gotta feed that belly, you know. :) Anyway, Daddy and I often marvel at just how awesome you are. So, please keep it up for us, okay?

By this point with your sisters, I was already back at work. I’ve taken a few extra weeks with you—to get us through the month of August—so I get to enjoy some additional time at home with you. I do go back to work on September 1, though, so that’s another big transition that will happen this month. On one hand, it feels like I’ve been at home with you forever, but on the other, it has gone by WAY TOO FAST. The closer we get, the more sad I’m getting at the thought of leaving you. Your smiley, happy face is fun to be around, you know.

Speaking of smiling, you are SO HAPPY. You smile at anyone and everyone who makes eye contact with you and talks to you. You love it. And we love watching it. What a flirt. I wonder if you’re going to eventually develop “stranger danger” like your sisters, or if you’ll be a more social baby. It’s funny how you’re all different in so many ways!

Your sisters are still totally in love with you. I love listening to the way they talk to you. They are ALWAYS in your face, despite my frequent reminders to back up, give you space, let him see you, etc. They just can’t help themselves. I’m pretty sure you’re Nora’s favorite person in the entire family. And Vivienne, well, every time we’re going someplace, she always asks, “Seanie come, too?” As if we would leave you at home alone! Ha.

You’re still not rolling over, but I think it’s coming soon. I just don’t think the urge to go anywhere has struck you yet, since you’re so content just lying where you are. But you have successfully rubbed most of the hair off of the back of your head. Your legs and arms are constantly moving, and so is your little head. Back and forth, back and forth you turn it, so the little bit of hair you had is a goner. You still have a little tuft of hair at the base of your skull, though, so it’s… interesting. You definitely have a funny little hairdo right now!

Your 3 month-day was on my 34th birthday. Happy to share the 16th of the month with you, bubba. I love you even more than I knew I would, if that makes sense. You’re so cute I could eat you up (but I won’t). Here’s to marking another month… and hoping that the next one might be filled with more consecutive hours of sleep! *yawn*

Love you infinitely,


Dear Sean,

Well, hello, little fella. You’ve officially “come alive” this month. Your eyes are more focused, it’s clear you can see us and the world around you, and you’re interacting—grabbing things, cooing, SMILING. Sometimes you give up smiles so easily, all we have to do is look at you or talk a little bit. Other times, we might work HARD for it and you still don’t give them up (like when I was taking these pictures)! But when you do smile, oh my gosh—my heart! You are so gosh darn cute, I can barely stand it.

And you’re huge. I knew you were, but it’s been confirmed. We took you to your two-month well baby appointment at the doctor’s a few days ago and you weighed in at a whopping 12 lbs., 8 oz. Now, that’s the 66th percentile, which means you’re actually pretty “average,” but considering you started off at only 6 lbs., 15 oz., it’s been a pretty steep period of growth for you. Plus, your sisters were only 9 lbs., 9 oz. (Nora) and 10 lbs., 7 oz. (Vivienne) at this same age, sooo… you’re huge to us. You still love to eat, so there’s no question how you’ve bulked up! :) The truth is that I weighed you when I was writing your 1-month letter last month. It was informal—I weighed myself, then weighed myself again while holding you, and subtracted my weight. Using that method, it looked like you were 10 lbs. already. You had only been 7.5 lbs. at two weeks, so I was honestly in disbelief. Or denial? I figured that method must not be too accurate. It seemed impossible you were growing that quickly. But knowing what I know now, yep… it was probably accurate. It’s just crazy having a 2-month-old baby boy who is roughly the same size now as Nora was at SIX MONTHS. Haha! But I’m loving it. Your plump little cheeks, arms, legs, and belly… I could nibble on them all day long! Even your little fingers are getting a little pudgy.

Needless to say, your newborn clothes no longer fit you. The 0-3 month sizes are good for now, but who knows for how long. Our pediatrician says that she expects your rate of growth to level out now, but only time will tell. We have only a few summer outfits in 3-6 months so I’m hoping the 0-3 month clothes will at least get us through the rest of the season! It’s been a really hot and dry summer so far, so you’ve been wearing a lot of rompers and onesies. You have some really cute shorts/t-shirt outfits as well. There are a few things in 0-3 month size that I don’t know if you’ll ever get a chance to wear unless we get some cooler days—footie pajamas, and outfits with pants. Hopefully we can squeeze in a wear or two before they have to be packed away!

A surprise at the pediatrician was to learn that you might have what’s called a congenital inguinal hernia. It’s apparently an opening in the groin that’s supposed to close up before birth (or shortly thereafter), but we have reason to believe yours didn’t. We are seeing a pediatric urologist next week to get you checked out and see what the deal is. It sounds like “worst case,” you may have to have a minor surgical procedure at some point, just to close the opening—and that likely wouldn’t happen until you’re 9-12 months old. We’re hoping it’ll turn out to be nothing to really worry about, just something to watch until you’re bigger.

Let’s see… sleep update? You are doing pretty well and being kind to me most nights now. You are still late to go to bed for the night—we go upstairs around 9:30, and I’ve usually fed you and you’re passed out by shortly after 10:00. Then I’m passed out shortly after that. On the really good nights, you’ll sleep through until 5-6 a.m. before you wake to eat. On good nights, sometime between 3-4 a.m. On the “ehhh” nights, you’ll sleep until 2 a.m. and then you’ll usually wake again at 5 or 6 a.m. Thankfully, in any of these scenarios, you’re really only waking to eat and then you typically go back down easily for me until your sisters inevitably wake you up between 7:30-8.

With your sisters, I remember it being pretty obvious when we needed to move up their bedtimes earlier. You do get fussy in the later evenings, but the time that happens varies. And it’s relatively mild. Your behavior hasn’t yet reached a point where it’s screaming, “I NEED TO GO TO BED.” The pediatrician says that transition will likely happen in the next several weeks (and at the latest, by four months?), so we’re watching for that.

We did transition you a week or so ago to the pack ‘n’ play for sleep. You’re still in our room (it’s just so much easier for me with the middle-of-the-night or early-morning feedings), but the next step toward getting you in your own room in your crib was to get you sleeping flat (as opposed to on an incline in the rock ‘n’ play), so we’ve done that. Dare I say that you’ve actually been sleeping better in the pack ‘n’ play? I think it’s probably more comfortable for you at this point since you can stretch out. You know, because you’re so big and all. ;)

Napping during the day is hit or miss. There’s no schedule for it. You sleep when you sleep and that’s all there is to it. Some days, it seems like all you do is sleep and eat, and others it seems I can’t get you to sleep for longer than 15 minutes here and there. Thankfully, you’re pretty content to be on the go, whether you’re sleeping or awake. It’s a big blessing for a third baby because, well, our lives require that you be on the go A LOT.

Your sisters love you to the moon and back. They really can’t get enough of you. Telling them to leave you alone because you’re sleeping is like straight-up TORTURE, especially for Vivienne. They’re always sure to give you kisses and hugs before bedtime or before leaving you for whatever reason (daycare, camp, friends’ houses, etc.). Nora loves to make you smile and continues to call you “the cutest brother in the world.” Vivienne excitedly squeals, “He’s looking at me!” anytime you focus on her. They are big helpers with diaper changes, getting you dressed, trying to calm you when you’re crying. I can’t give you a bath without two sisters glued to my sides with extra wash cloths in their hands, rubbing you down. You are a lucky little boy to have so many “mothers”!

When we carry you around, you’re now much more content when we face you outward so you can observe the world. You are starting to enjoy the play mat, and I just clipped a hanging toy to the handle of your car seat to give you something to bat at whenever you’d like.

I just finished your nursery. It’s the first nursery for which we’ve ever adopted a theme—a nautical theme. For your sisters’ rooms, we only ever chose color schemes. All there is left to do in your room is to put photos in the many frames, which I hope to do in the next week. I love the way it’s turned out and I hope you’ll enjoy it through your infancy and toddlerhood.

Earlier this month, you experienced a rite of passage in our family: Your first trip to the Poconos. We went down over 4th of July weekend with our family: Grammy, your uncles and aunt, and your cousins. We visited our life-long family friend, Susan, and it was a great time. It’ll be fun to see you there next year, toddling around with all of the big kids!

Thus far, you have been a really chill, “easy” baby. You really only ever cry when you’re hungry or sleepy. Or, occasionally when you’re bored/uncomfortable and just need a diaper change or a change of scenery. When you have a baby, you never know what “kind” you’re going to get. I always expect things to change at any moment with this whole parenthood thing. I know by now not to get too comfortable with routines, especially with babies. So, if things take a turn? I’ll be prepared. But if you keep on keepin’ on like you have? We’ll continue to know how lucky we are. Thank you for going with the flow! It’s a wonderful quality that perhaps you’ll keep through your life.

New nicknames this month: Bubba and Bubby. Those are probably the ones I use most often now!

You are another light in our lives and we couldn’t be more grateful for you. Sean, you’re so special to our family and you fit right in—into the groove, into the chaos, into the happy.

We love you more than you’ll ever know.

Onward to month #3!

Love you always,


Dear Sean,

First and foremost—it’s no secret that Daddy and I were on the fence for a while about a third child. It was a drawn-out “do we or don’t we?” debate (although deep down, I think we were always going to go for it). And although I was not a huge fan of the third pregnancy—nor the second one, for that matter—I will say this: Now that we have YOU? I’m so glad we went for it. Oh, I love you so.

You have a rather large fan club. Your daddy is another card-carrying member, obviously. And your sisters? Well, you basically have three mommies. (You’re welcome.) Nora and Vivienne adore you. They are constantly asking to hold you, kiss you, play with you. They’ve fought over you. But above all, they are actually great helpers, so it’s been fun.

Over the last month, Nora has repeatedly told me, “I can’t believe it’s a brudder, I really thought it would be another sister.” But don’t worry, because she also says, “I’m so happy I have a brudder. He’s the best brudder in the whole world. Sean is the cutest brudder in my life.” She loves you a whole lot.

Vivienne claims you as her own. She routinely says “my boy” in reference to you. She’ll actually look right at Nora sometimes when she says it, implying that you don’t at all belong to Nora—ONLY to her. To ask to hold you, she’ll say “I hold it.” Haha! She has only just very recently started saying “I hold him,” and it’s definitely not consistent. And she won’t take no for an answer, either! I can be nursing you or you can be sleeping peacefully or you may be screaming your head off and she will still say “I hold it. I hold it. I hold it.” over and over again until we oblige. She’s persistent, that one. Prepare yourself, because I’m pretty sure she’s going to boss you around as you guys grow. When she isn’t calling you “my boy,” she calls you “Baby Sean.” Always with the “Baby” in front of it. And when she sees other babies in the grocery store when we go, she’ll say “TWO BABY SEANS!” in reference to you and the other baby. It’s cute.

But bringing you home and into our family has been a dream. A breeze. Totally natural. Daddy and I are sometimes a little overwhelmed at having another human being to care for, but typically, it’s your sisters driving us crazy at this stage—not you. You’re the simple one. Eat, sleep, poop, snuggle. That’s really all that’s needed to keep you happy these days.

I’m still kind of amazed I have a son. I was very comfortable with the idea of a third girl, but out you came, ready to give me a new adventure. It was love at first sight, you know. And now I can’t imagine it any other way.

I can’t believe how much you’ve grown already. I mean, I can—since I’ve done this before—but it’s still so hard to see your precious, teeny tiny baby grow so quickly! Your newborn clothes are getting small, but you’re still swimming in 3-month sizes, so I’ll keep living in denial for a bit longer and stuff you into the newborn things. :) I know it won’t be long, though!

When Vivienne was a newborn, I wrote about the bittersweet feelings over her being our (probable) last child. Now, I’m feeling all of that again, but for real this time. Because you are the last, completing our family—not because you’re a boy, but because you’re a third child. We are blessed, and we know it. We’re looking forward to watching you and your sisters grow up together. The future looks bright. But as much as I look ahead, I also am just savoring it all. Seriously savoring it. So much so that I extended my maternity leave.

With Nora and Vivienne, I “only” took 12 weeks off of work. Although I know it’s more than a lot of people get, it still was never enough. This time, 12 weeks off would have put me back at work on August 8, but I’m not going back until September 1. I am so excited. It was something I had considered before you were born—extending leave through the end of the summer, because of the nice timing—but we had decided we would evaluate later, depending on your actual birthdate, finances, and such. And although not receiving a paycheck is not fun, I knew shortly after you were born that I wanted to do whatever we needed to do to extend the leave. The more I thought about it, the more I wanted to do it. This is the last time I will have the opportunity to do this. And not only will it give me extra time with you, but some extra time with your sisters as well. Above all, I knew I would never regret it.

For this first month, your sisters’ schedules have remained status quo, which has been nice because it has meant that you and I have had a good deal of quiet time together. Nora still goes to school in the mornings, obviously, although now she gets to take the bus home to me every day instead of only twice a week. Vivienne has continued going to Mary’s. But in a few more days, when school lets out for the summer, we’ll be adjusting a bit. Nora and Vivienne with both go to Mary’s, but only three days a week. It will be beneficial to them to get out of the house, spend time with friends, keep some semblance of normalcy, etc., and nice for you and I to have the bonding time just the two of us. On the other two days, I’ll have all three of you with me. You’ll undoubtedly be carted all over the place as I try to keep your sisters busy on those days. You’ve already been very well traveled during this last month—since I’m room mom for Nora’s class, I’ve had you at her school more times than I can count! It’s been really busy with all of the end-of-the-year activities. You garner a lot of attention every time we go in, from teachers, staff, AND students. Because you’re so tiny, but also because you’re (usually) so good!

You have a pretty easy temperament so far. You typically only cry if you’re hungry (which is often) or if you’re really uncomfortable (gassy sometimes, which seems within normal “range” for your age). The funny thing is that you will go from content to FREAKING OUT in about five seconds. Once you decide you want to eat, you want to eat NOW. Which would be fine for a first baby, but unfortunately, as a third, you sometimes have to wait it out for a few minutes. That sometimes means I have to listen to several minutes of really loud screaming. Still, can’t complain at all. I hope you continue to be this easygoing.

So, eating—you enjoy it. A lot. You eat more often than your sisters ever did, at least as far as I remember. There were nights during that first week at home when you ate nearly every hour. That wasn’t fun. Thankfully, you figured it out relatively quickly and TYPICALLY you only get up once or twice (more often twice) a night now. Once a night is a real treat, I’ll tell you that! You will usually cluster feed at points during the day to make up for it. During the night, you will most often wake up between 1:30-3:00, and then again between 4:00-6:00. If you make it until between 3:00-4:00 for that first wakeup, then sometimes you won’t wake up again until 6:30-7:30, which is glorious. That’s still rare at this point, though. But I know how bad it could be so I am thankful, believe me. You’re doing great. You’re only a month old!

I’m not sure what you weigh now. You won’t go to the pediatrician again until two months. At two weeks old, you were 7 lbs., 8 oz., up from your birth weight of 6 lbs., 15 oz. You were down to 6 lbs., 8 oz. when we left the hospital, and by four days old, you were back up to 6 lbs., 14 oz., so weight gain has not been an issue for you so far. You’ve got a cute little double chin going now, too. :)

You’ve developed some good nicknames, even just in the first few weeks. The aforementioned “Baby Sean,” Seanie, Buddy, Bud, and Big Guy, to name a few.

We’re all pretty obsessed with you when you’re awake (and content). You are just the cutest and I love looking into your beautiful blue-gray eyes. I think you are just beginning to start to REALLY see/focus, and I know that’ll continue improving over the next few weeks. I am anxiously awaiting those first real smiles! Your sleepy/gassy smiles are already adorable—the real thing is bound to kill me with cuteness. Your little face is so cute, I could smooch it all day long (and I do).

I will never cease to be amazed by how quickly and easily it’s possible to fall in love with your child. I’ve been lucky enough to experience it three times now, and my heart has only expanded each time. The moment you entered into the world is etched into my mind for eternity, a joy I will carry with me through all of my life.

Nora keeps saying, semi-jokingly, that she would never trade you for another brother. And hey, it’s true—you are all ours and will be forever. I love who you are already, and can’t wait to get to know you even better as you grow.

Thanks for choosing our family, Bud.

Love you always and forever,