I took 12 weeks off of work for maternity leave. I have only 3.5 weeks left.
Now that I am within the final third of my all-day, everyday time with Nora, I am shaking in my boots. I always knew that I’d be going back to work after a baby, but now that it’s becoming a reality ohmygodIsodon’twantto. I dread the day I have to leave her at the sitter’s and go to work all day. Dread it.
One of my friends told me that the day she had to leave her daughter for the first time was one of the worst days of her life. Another friend told me that for the first few weeks, I will feel an actual physical ache all day long, the whole time I’m separated from Nora.
Well, now… doesn’t that all sound fun?
Today, I had to go into work for the morning for a special meeting. Michael was able to arrange it so he could work from home for half the day, so he stayed home with the babe while I took off to the office. I had to leave the house at 7:30 a.m., and I was back a little bit after noon. Four and a half hours, people. That’s all.
Still, last night, as I was lying in bed, I stared at my little sweetheart in her bed and felt sadness in the pit of my stomach. It wasn’t that I was worried about her–she was going to be with her daddy, after all–it was just that I knew how much I was going to miss her. And we’re talking about four and a half hours!
Oh, man… the real thing is going to hurt.
On December 6, I fear my heart will break into a million little pieces.
AboutI'm Heather. I just turned 30. I'm happily married, and mommy to the most beautiful little girl in the world (what, you're saying I could be biased?). Determined DIYer and homeowner. Sarcastic. A perfectionist. A bleeding-heart liberal. Frugal. Loves a little dog way more than many humans. Loves food, hates exercise (it's an ongoing battle). A loyal football fan. I love to laugh. Value family and friends above all else. Vie to be a world traveler.
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